Thursday, April 19, 2007

Feeling Fancy Free

Apollo called tonight to say goodnight to the kids and told me that he would call later to chat once I was settled for the evening.
Our phone call was great.. I needed it. I opened a bottle of Merlot and we talked and talked. For the first time in quite a long time we had phone sex. Is it horrible of me that I was thinking of some of the pictures that I saw online on some of these blogs? Fantasy isn't wrong.. adds to the excitement right? But it was new and stimulating and well the bottle of wine didn't hurt!

I love Apollo and he keeps finding ways for me to love him more. I just wish that he was here to love me now. I went up to the photo studio after we got off the phone and I went searching through blogs again. Somehow I ended up on this amateur porn site. Shh.. don't tell anyone but I look around a bit. In fact I looked around a lot. I side glanced at the clock and oh crap! I'd been on there for over 2 hours! I need to go to bed. I am taking myself to a local coffee shop after the kids go to school, I saw that they have different groups that meet there. Maybe I'll be able to find one to meet new friends.

4 comments:

Chuck said...

If fantasy adds to the excitement and you're using it to fuel your relations with Apollo, you shouldn't feel guilty at all.

Have you taken another peak at my blog - there's a new post up there ya know.

Jessica said...

It was only wrong if you weren't thinking of me.

Bugwit said...

No, that's not wrong. POSTING something on the amateur porn site might be, though. :-)

DJ MotorCityMonk said...

Just don't let it become an obsession - not that I would know anything about that.