I turned back

I am not guilty...
but, Apollo wasn't as ok with the pic as he originally thought.

It wasn't even a dare!

Told Apollo how I had mentioned to Jessica that I would show my breasts if she showed hers. Apollo took this last night. I don't think he realized how much fun a digital camera can be! This is part of the lingerie that I bought for when Apollo came home on Friday.

Wonderful Smiles for a Wonderful Day

I did something today that I don't normally do. I kept the kids home with me today. They have been great with adjusting to the move, new house, new schools, and making new friends. I thought that they deserve a day with Mom. To tell you the truth, I WANTED a day with them- in light of everything that happened at VT.

So we got up in the morning I made pancakes ( I think they thought that it was Saturday, that's my usual) and the we sat in the family room and watched cartoons. Then we baked cookies and ate some batter and hot chocolate while they baked. I love this.. I so love this! I decided to take them out for the afternoon... see the sights around NC. We went into town and parked to walk through and see what we could find. We found a hobby shop that my boy loved! My daughter and I found some bags of craft supplies (pipe cleaners, foam stickers, craft sticks, pom-poms and such) and we decided to walk towards the back of the store. Glory be.. what did we see??? SCRAPBOOKING!! That girl was so excited! I got her into scrapbooking this past year and she likes to use my doubles to make her own album. Over an hour and a half later (and too much money spent!!) I took them to lunch at Red Robin!
We came home and they crashed. It was a great day and I am glad that I did it. Now I don't buy my kids things all the time nor do we go out to eat a lot so they knew it was a treat. But how I would love to spoil them more.. in a way I did by laughing, playing, hugging and just spending time. I will spoil like that any chance I can! I am letting them plan dinner tonight- it could be cereal, PB&J, or spaghetti.. but it's their call!

"Never fear spoiling children by making them too happy. Happiness is the atmosphere in which all good affections grow."
Thomas Bray

Unconditional Love

It is in the sharing and giving of love to others that we receive the same that we give. Give love and surely you will experience love itself. Express love to the world around you and the world will reflect back to you the power of love.


I spent about ninety minutes reading different blogs. I would hop from one to another through the comments. So many people sound unhappy. I wonder if this is a safe place to express unhappiness or if they are truly unhappy. It is contagious. After reading for so long I found myself questioning what was right in my relationship. I need to remain positive. I do love. I am capable of sharing and giving love.

Friday Night and Everything Is Alright

Apollo comes home tonight and I want to make a nice dinner. I decided on Shrimp Alfredo with Spinach, salad, garlic bread and cake for desert. Of course I must wait for the kids to make the cake. They LOVE to help me bake and then lick the mixing sticks! Thank you David for a spectacular Alfredo recipe! I will let you know how it turns out.

Yesterday I went to the coffee shop. When I was there I saw on their meeting board that they have a scrapbooking group, music review group, book club (of course) and many others. I think that I might see what the music review and scrapbooking groups are like. After the coffee shop I took myself lingerie shopping- I like to surprise Apollo too! Then I headed to Winn-Dixie for food for the house and I even picked up flowers for me.

I have to get dinner started and I still have to shower before the kids get home! ♥

Dear Apollo ♥

Dear Apollo,

I did fine this week. The children missed you. Especially at bedtime. I missed you as well. I have made some new friends. They are through the blog that I opened. They have opened my eyes to a world of freedom and nudity. Dear Apollo, I am not sure if you want to know this new side of me just yet. Do you need to know I have been spending my spare time here and here?

All my love,
Molly

Feeling Fancy Free

Apollo called tonight to say goodnight to the kids and told me that he would call later to chat once I was settled for the evening.
Our phone call was great.. I needed it. I opened a bottle of Merlot and we talked and talked. For the first time in quite a long time we had phone sex. Is it horrible of me that I was thinking of some of the pictures that I saw online on some of these blogs? Fantasy isn't wrong.. adds to the excitement right? But it was new and stimulating and well the bottle of wine didn't hurt!

I love Apollo and he keeps finding ways for me to love him more. I just wish that he was here to love me now. I went up to the photo studio after we got off the phone and I went searching through blogs again. Somehow I ended up on this amateur porn site. Shh.. don't tell anyone but I look around a bit. In fact I looked around a lot. I side glanced at the clock and oh crap! I'd been on there for over 2 hours! I need to go to bed. I am taking myself to a local coffee shop after the kids go to school, I saw that they have different groups that meet there. Maybe I'll be able to find one to meet new friends.

Content

Tonight I will not worry about anything. I will be grateful my family is safe and healthy. I miss Apollo. Tonight I will not let that disturb me.

School Shootings

Blacksburg, VA to Charlottesville, VA is about a 2 hour drive. I called Amy yesterday. I wanted to hear her voice. Apollo is out of town and the shootings were just too close to UVA. I didn't attend UVA, but Amy did. 1994 was her Sophomore/Junior year. It is scary.
This week is the 8th anniversary of Columbine. I look at my children, so innocent, and I want to keep them sheltered.

Yesterday I felt very free. I felt the closest to being Molly than I have in a while. Apollo doesn't stifle me or hold me down. He will appreciate the time I spent in my studio. He may even approve of some of the friendships I am cultivating on the internet. There is a naughty but nice feeling, however, knowing how I spent yesterday morning! I feel very unrestrained.

Today my prayers are for the families of the victims of VA Tech. May God Bless them.

Nothing Like A LONG, HOT, Shower

Husband left to go out of town. Blah blah blah... ugh.
The house is put together but it doesn't make a difference because we don't know anyone to invite over. The kids are at school and I took advantage of the moment. I took some pictures around the house. My favorite place? Our photo studio/spare room in our attic. This morning I used the white backdrop behind the bed. I just lay there nude for a while... thinking.. listening to the hiss of the radiator and the tick-tock of the cuckoo clock. I decided to take some pictures. I LOVE photography and well some of these blogs have given me ideas!! ;)

Maybe I will post some on here. But I did take advantage of the kids not being here and took a LONG, HOT shower. It was glorious! I should do that every morning, but then I might never leave the house, let alone the bed and photo studio.

The How, The Why, and The OH MY

When I met him, in 1995, he was my Apollo.
He was and is my ideal of manly beauty. 'Apollo' is also the god of poetry and music.

Sunday evening, after the children had gone to bed, my Apollo presented me with flowers and a quiet evening. It was great. But like I said he keeps me on my toes. He had Billie Holiday playing and he said that he had something to show me. We went up to the attic which we made into our spare room. He told me to close my eyes- he opened the door and led me in. He asked me to keep my eyes closed and stay there. From behind my closed eyes I could sense an illuminating light and the scent of lavender and vanilla. What is this man up to? Apollo asked if he could undress me and chills went down my spine and a warmth spread between my legs. Off went my mommy gear, yoga pants and a hoodie, and on went one of the most fluffiest of bathrobes I have ever felt. He took my hands and led me a few feet forward and turned me around. I could feel his breathe on the back on my neck (my weak point) and he came around and kissed me. I could feel my legs just turn to jello. I wanted to open my eyes but I was afraid if I said anything I might cry from sheer excitement.
He asked me to open my eyes and there it was. My very own photo studio in the middle of the spare room. There was a large curtain rod behind the bed to be able to switch out backdrops and the bed is movable (or not **wink wink**). He built-in another closet to use as an editing room with the computer and also darkroom capability. I love this man. Of course there was one hitch- he has to go out of town for business. So we christened that room, more than once, only 6 more rooms to go!

Robert Burns

How disappointing Friday night turned out to be. Yes, the flowers were nice. Yes, the fire was nice. Yes, the attempt appeared to have been there. It seems as though we have no sooner unpacked and he is leaving me for a business trip. I am so bothered by this, that I can't seem to be bothered with this. He will fly out on Monday. Just like he is leaving for work. He will return...when he does.




But Mousie, thou are no thy-lane,
In proving foresight may be vain:
The best laid schemes o' Mice an' Men,
Gang aft agley,
An' lea'e us nought but grief an' pain,
For promis'd joy!

How many times have people glibly trotted out, “The best laid schemes” without realising that they were quoting from Burns? The sadness, the despair, the insight contained within this verse are truly remarkable and deeply moving. no ‘thy lane = not alone; gan aft agley = often go awry

A Sudden Surprise

Well surprises never cease to amaze me. We had dinner last night and went through the normal bedtime routine with the kids. I came downstairs and my husband had the dishes cleaned up, candles lit and a CD of Billie Holiday playing. It was a bit chilly so he had turned on the gas fireplace and we just sat on the couch. All of a sudden he jumped up, I was nervous, and he came back with a bouquet of tulips. Who is this man? What did he do with my husband? Well whatever he did with him, this one can stay! It sure helped since I am feeling unsure about new surroundings and lonely for company and friends.

"We could stay home and get drunk quick"

I do not know what I would do without The Fratellis.
They are my only friend in this city.
They give me a good excuse to try different cocktails!


Henrietta Released 12 June 2006

Tracklisting:

CD Single:
1. Henrietta
2. Cigarello

Caffeini Martini

Ingredient Amount Kahlua 2 oz. Liqueur, chocolate 1 oz. Schnapps, butterscotch 1 oz. Espresso 4 oz. Milk 1 oz.

Glass to Use Cocktail glass

Mixing Instructions

Shake ingredients in a cocktail shaker with ice. Strain into glass.